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Whose Life is it Anyway?




  Whose Life Is It Anyway?

  Bestselling author Sinéad Moriarty lives in Dublin with her husband and their two sons. Whose Life Is It Anyway? is her fifth novel.

  Whose Life Is It Anyway?

  SINÉAD MORIARTY

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  IRELAND

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  First published 2008

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  Copyright © Sinéad Moriarty, 2008

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  978-0-14-190848-9

  For Sue

  ‘Niamh, you’re going to get whiplash,’ said Pierre, reaching over to hold my hand as I turned back from the door.

  ‘I don’t want to miss him when he comes in,’ I said, tensely.

  ‘Well, then, maybe you should stand beside it,’ said Pierre, sighing. I’d been snapping at him all morning and he’d clearly had enough.

  I was about to apologize when I saw Finn pushing open the door of the brasserie. I leapt up and ran over.

  ‘Hi,’ I said, hugging my younger brother.

  ‘Hey there. So, come on, where’s this boyfriend you’ve been so coy about?’ he said, looking around the bar. ‘No, don’t tell me, let me guess.’ He scanned the faces in the room and a smile spread over his face. ‘Oh, yes, very you – blue shirt, sandy hair, big smile,’ he said, pointing to a jolly-looking, round-faced guy in the corner.

  I shook my head. I was afraid to speak. I felt sick with nerves.

  ‘I was sure it was him,’ said Finn. ‘OK, I give up.’

  ‘Over there,’ I said, pointing at Pierre.

  Finn squinted. ‘In the red jumper?’ he said, sounding surprised, as he stared at a middle-aged man with glasses in a scarlet sweater.

  ‘No,’ I whispered. ‘There, in the green jumper.’

  Finn’s jaw dropped.

  ‘Oh, Jesus, you’ve really done it this time!’

  1

  Dublin, September 1998

  I heard laughing behind me. Then a voice said, ‘This is priceless, Tom. Listen. “The difference between men and women: I was out for lunch with two male colleagues yesterday. The conversation went as follows. Male 1: ‘I can’t believe you ordered the burger. You’re a fat fuck.’ Male 2: ‘Yeah, well, I’d rather be fat than an ugly fucker who hasn’t had sex in a year.’ Male 1: ‘I had sex last week.’ Male 2: ‘Dogs don’t count.’ Male 1: ‘She wasn’t that bad.’ Male 2: ‘She looked like Danny De Vito.’ Male 1: ‘Only smaller.’

  “‘They both roared and began to talk about the Manchester United v. Chelsea game.

  “‘I was gobsmacked. If one of my female colleagues called me a fat bitch for ordering a burger, not only would I never speak to her again but I’d stop eating, become anorexic and die of food deprivation.

  “‘If she told me I was ugly, I’d enter the witness-protection programme where I’d undergo an extreme makeover: eyebrow lift, cheek implants, Botox, lip-plumping and veneers (yes, I have thought about it before). A year – and a lot of pain – later I’d come back and confront her as a stunning supermodel type with pearly white teeth.”’

  ‘Niamh, that’s your column he’s reading,’ said Emily, a fellow journalist I was having coffee with. ‘Go over to him.’

  ‘No way,’ I said, shrinking back in my chair.

  Emily peered over the top of the couch and gasped. ‘He’s gorgeous – you have to go over.’

  I shook my head. I was far too embarrassed to stroll over to some complete stranger and say, ‘Hi, I’m the journalist who wrote that.’ But before I could stop her, Emily stood up.

  ‘Sorry to interrupt. I couldn’t help overhearing you laughing at that column and I wondered if you’d like to meet the woman who wrote it. She’s right here beside me.’

  ‘I’d love to,’ said the voice. He had an English accent.

  I blushed and thumped Emily’s leg. ‘Stop it,’ I hissed.

  ‘Come and join us,’ said my ex-friend.

  I heard movement, then two men came over and sat down. I stared into my cup, mortified.

  ‘This is Niamh O’Flaherty, columnist extraordinaire,’ said Emily.

  ‘Very pleased to meet you,’ said my fan, proffering a hand. I looked up – and froze. In front of me was one of the handsomest men I’d ever seen.

  ‘I’m Pierre and this is Tom,’ he said, introducing his not-so-attractive older friend.

  ‘Pierre?’ said Emily. ‘You don’t sound French.’

  ‘I moved to England when I was ten, so my accent is long gone.’ He smiled. Then, turning to me, he asked, ‘So, what’s in store for next week’s column?’

  ‘Oh, I’m not sure,’ I mumbled, trying not to stare at him.

  ‘Maybe you guys can give her some ideas,’ said Emily. ‘Let’s order some coffee and brainstorm.’

  ‘I’d love to,’ said Tom, ‘but I have to go. I’ve a lecture in ten minutes. I’m sure Pierre will give you plenty of material. Nice to meet you,’ he said, and hurried out of the door.

  ‘Are you a journalist too?’ Pierre asked Emily.

  She sighed. ‘Kind of. I write the obituaries. I’m still waiting for my big break.’

  ‘I’m sure it’ll come soon,’ he told her.

  ‘What about you?’ Emily asked him.

  ‘Nothing as glamorous as Fleet Street, I’m afraid. I’m a boring old professor.’

  ‘That’s not boring at all, it sounds fascinating,’ Emily gushed.

  ‘One of my students fell asleep in a lecture today.’

  ‘She must be short-sighted,’ laughed Emily.

  ‘Is your friend OK?’ Pierre asked her, pointing to me. I was staring at the floor, trying to stop my legs shaking. I’d never felt such an instant attraction to someone. I was afraid to look up in case it was written all over my face.

  ‘Normally you can’t shut her up. I think she’s annoyed with me because I dragged you over,’ Emily admitted.

  ‘I’m not annoyed,’ I said, finding my voice, ‘but I am incredibly embarrassed. I don’t normally go around accosting people who read my column.’

  ‘Well, I’m glad you did. I’m a big fan. It never fails to make me laugh.’

  ‘Thanks, it’s really nice of you to say so,’ I said, smiling at him.

  ‘Where do you get the ideas from?’ />
  ‘To be honest, I spend a lot of time in coffee shops like this one, listening to other people’s conversations.’

  ‘Were you listening to mine?’

  ‘No – should I have been?’ I asked.

  ‘Tom and I were talking about phonetics. I don’t think even you could make that funny.’

  ‘It’s not actually the subject matter that counts, it’s the way it’s being discussed that can be humorous,’ I said, batting my eyelids, just a little.

  ‘Even a conversation about auditory phonetics and speech perception?’ he asked, leaning closer.

  ‘You might have me there,’ I said, giving him a flirty raised eyebrow.

  ‘Will you look at the time!’ said Emily. ‘I have to run. I’ll talk to you later, Niamh. Nice to meet you, Pierre.’ She winked at me as she left.

  ‘I’ve never met a real-life columnist before,’ said Pierre.

  ‘I hope you’re not going to stalk me.’

  ‘Do you have many stalkers?’

  ‘Tons.’

  ‘Men?’

  ‘Yep.’

  ‘Young?’

  ‘And handsome.’

  ‘So I’ve a lot of competition?’

  ‘’Fraid so.’

  ‘How do I get to the front of the queue?’

  ‘Flattery, diamonds and furs.’

  ‘Can I start with flattery?’

  ‘Sure.’

  ‘Tu es très amusante.’

  ‘What happened to belle?’

  ‘Isn’t funny better than beautiful?’

  ‘Not even close.’

  ‘Men like witty women.’

  ‘As friends.’

  ‘Not necessarily.’

  ‘When was the last time you went out with a woman who looked like a horse but made you laugh?’

  ‘I’m about to.’

  ‘Excuse me!’

  ‘A beautiful, witty colt.’

  ‘You need to work on your technique.’

  ‘I’m out of practice.’

  ‘Are you married?’

  ‘No.’

  ‘In a meaningful relationship?’

  ‘No.’

  ‘Seeing someone casually?’

  ‘No.’

  ‘Gay?’

  ‘No.’

  ‘Pervert?’

  ‘No.’

  ‘Police record?’

  ‘No.’

  ‘So what’s the catch?’

  ‘There is none. Are you always this suspicious?’

  ‘No.’

  ‘So why are you giving me the third degree?’

  ‘Because you’re a thirty-something professor who’s very easy on the eye. How come you’re single?’

  ‘How come you are?’

  ‘How do you know I’m not in an incredible relationship?’

  ‘You wrote about being single last week.’

  ‘Me and my big mouth.’

  ‘It’s serendipity.’

  ‘What is?’

  ‘This. The fact that I happened to be reading your column while you were sitting at the next table and you heard me laugh and we met.’

  ‘It could just be a coincidence.’

  ‘Cynic.’

  ‘Realist.’

  ‘Tu es la plus belle femme du monde.’

  ‘Much better.’

  ‘Thank you.’

  ‘Still room for improvement, though.’

  ‘Is there?’

  ‘You could say, “Tu es the twin of Claudia Schiffer.”’

  ‘I prefer Gisèle.’

  ‘She’ll do.’

  ‘Can I ask you a personal question?’

  ‘Depends how personal.’

  ‘I think you’ll find it acceptable.’

  ‘I’ll be the judge of that.’

  ‘As a phonetician I’m fascinated by accents and yours is fantastic. You speak English with an English-Irish accent peppered with Irish sayings.’

  ‘That’s because I’m a mongrel.’

  ‘That makes two of us. What’s your excuse?’

  ‘Born and bred in Finchley, North London, of Irish parents. I spent my youth constantly surrounded by Irish relatives and family friends. I came to Dublin to study and never went back. You?’

  ‘Born and raised in Paris until I was ten when we moved to Oxford. Parents are from Martinique. That’s where the tan comes from.’

  ‘I was wondering about that.’

  ‘But too polite to ask.’

  ‘Didn’t want to be politically incorrect.’

  ‘Very thoughtful.’

  ‘I try to be.’

  ‘Dinner?’

  ‘Love to.’

  ‘Eight o’clock in Gatsby’s?’

  ‘Perfect.’

  ‘Excellent.’

  ‘Pierre?’

  ‘Yes?’

  ‘Do I call you African-French?’

  ‘Martinique’s in the Caribbean.’

  ‘Caribbean-French?’

  ‘No. Just plain black.’

  2

  I don’t remember going home. I was floating. No one had ever had such a strong impact on me. As I caught my reflection in a shop window I smiled. Thankfully I had to interview a cute up-and-coming actor that morning so I’d got dressed up and put on makeup. If Pierre had met me on a normal day – tracksuit bottoms and T-shirt – he’d have run a mile. Maybe it was serendipity. I’d never been to that coffee shop before. And what were the chances of him sitting beside me reading my column? It was all a bit freaky.

  Normally I met guys in pubs or nightclubs and they never seemed to have real jobs. My last boyfriend, Sean, had been an apprentice jockey. The fact that he was a foot shorter than me hadn’t bothered me too much. The fact that he weighed a stone less than I did bothered me a lot. I could never bring myself to sit on his knee because I’d have crushed his legs – which wouldn’t have been great for his career.

  Whenever Sean and I went out for dinner – which was rare – he’d comment on everything I ate and inform me how many calories each forkful contained. He was permanently dieting to try to meet his target weight. Eventually we stopped eating out. Sitting across the table from someone who’s eating a plate of lettuce is no fun. Food – or lack thereof – affected every aspect of our relationship. When we went to the cinema, I couldn’t have popcorn, when we went for coffee, we had to have skinny-milk lattes, which tasted rotten.

  Sean also had an unhealthy obsession with his horse. He talked about Prancing Queen as if she was another woman. He was always going on about how beautiful she was, how elegant and sophisticated, fit and feisty. I actually found myself becoming jealous of an animal!

  Things came to a head one day when I walked into my apartment to find him wrapped in clingfilm doing star jumps in the living room, sweating all over my new rug. I was going out with an anorexic midget who preferred his horse to me. It was time to call it a day. But before I could get the words out, the cellophane man said, ‘I’m sorry, Niamh, but it just isn’t working. Prancing Queen has to come first and she needs my full attention. I just called over to tell you that and to borrow some clingfilm. I’ll see you round. I’m off for a ten-mile run. I need to lose five pounds before my weigh-in on Saturday.’

  And with that, he jogged out of the door and down the road, leaving a trail of sweat in his wake. How dare he dump me for his horse? It doesn’t get more humiliating than that. I cried for weeks afterwards. My already fragile self-esteem was completely shattered. I couldn’t even bring myself to write about it in my column, I was so ashamed.

  So here I was, having just met a normal man who drank coffee with full-fat milk, had a proper job and was incredibly attractive. Where was the catch?

  My phone rang. It was Emily.

  ‘Hi.’

  ‘So, what happened after I very discreetly left you?’

  ‘Thanks for that.’

  ‘To be honest, the sparks between you were so hot I was afraid I’d get burnt.’

  I giggled. ‘Was it that obviou
s?’

  ‘Serious sexual tension.’

  ‘He’s gorgeous, isn’t he?’

  ‘I think he’s one of the best-looking men I’ve ever seen.’

  ‘I know, so why’s he interested in me?’

  ‘Come on. You look great at the moment, thanks to the jockey. Going out with him did wonders for your figure.’

  ‘At least something good came out of it. Pierre asked me out to dinner tonight.’

  ‘Lucky you.’

  ‘It’s too good to be true. There must be something wrong with him.’

  ‘Oh, for goodness’ sake, don’t jinx it. Just enjoy it.’

  ‘I’m really nervous.’

  ‘I’m not surprised. I’ve never seen you so smitten. You were dumbstruck.’

  ‘That’s what’s freaking me out.’

  ‘It’s serendipity.’

  ‘That’s what he said.’

  ‘Niamh, just get dressed up, go out and have a great time. Otherwise, I’m going instead of you.’

  I spent ages getting ready. I wanted to look as good as I possibly could, so that he wouldn’t take one look at me and run off in the opposite direction screaming, ‘Sorry, mistake.’

  When I arrived at the restaurant he was sitting at the table drinking a glass of wine. He stood up and kissed my cheek. My stomach flipped. He was gorgeous.

  ‘You look great,’ he said, smiling at me.

  ‘Ditto.’

  ‘Wine?’

  ‘Large glass, please.’

  ‘Thirsty?’

  ‘Nervous.’

  He filled a glass to the brim and I slugged it back.

  ‘Better?’

  ‘Much, thanks.’

  ‘So…’

  ‘So…’

  The waiter came over and we ordered our food. When he’d left, Pierre leant over. ‘I have a confession to make.’

  ‘I knew it, you are married.’

  ‘I’m forty-two.’

  ‘Botox?’

  ‘Good genes. You?’

  ‘Twenty-eight.’

  ‘Young!’

  ‘Do I look older?’

  ‘No, you act it.’

  ‘Is that a good thing?’

  ‘For an old codger like me, yes.’

  ‘Makes you feel less like a paedophile.’

  ‘You could say that.’ He laughed.